I have given up so soon

Life doesn't give second chances,
sometimes it's now or never

Starting the Marathon

I just got a book called nothing to a marathon. I did complete the marathon now I am moving on to other endeavors

Sometimes even when you try hard you still look fat

You wander through life and you are young and getting into shape is a tomorrow thing. When you wake up one morning you find that it tomorrow is staring you in the face and you don't have any more time. I have been active and not out of shape but not in shape. I have been the middle of the road guy and I never seem to make the commitment to one thing or the other. I am trying and with this blog I hope that I can make it.

I am on my way

I can't believe it I did 1 week of kettle bell and one day of tread mill. I am on my second week with kettle bell. I am hoping that I don't let life crush me . I hope I can start a journey that will never end.

Started.

I started to swing the kettlebell on Wednesday 2/10/2010 and Thursday 2/11/2010 and I hope that I will keep up with it. I am unable to attend the class I would like to go to. I like the Art of Strength kettlebell system. I would like to continue with this focus and maybe...I could be an instructor myself. I feel that this the only way I can exercise and not leave home. Having a son with autism limits your time. I can't start with the class I have gained too much weight and I couldn't keep up with them. Have to give it a shot and see if I can after a month.

I have to do what I have to do

I have been a sleep for so long allowing my life to roll into me like a wrecking ball . I have let the my tax debt spin out of control. I have let my people trample me down, and finally I haven't doing what really causes me to be alive. I need to do this. Do the things I love to make me healthy. I want to find my path, I want to live my life, I want to feel excitement again.

Thoughts become things.

• I need to loose weight down to 200 lbs from 240 lbs
• I need to improve my diet, I need to be around for my kids. I need to listen to Dr Essyltn
• I will enroll in a martial arts class
• I am going to start a kettlebell class
• I am saving for a house
• I will straighten out financials
• I will follow the words of the Buddha Meatloaf

I'm still alive

Must have been a miracle

It's been a hell of ride

Destination still unknown

It's a fact of life:

If you make one wrong move with the gun to your head

You better walk the line or you'll be left for dead

I'm a runaway train on broken track

I'm a ticker on a bomb, you can't turn back this time

That's right

I got away with it all and I'm still alive

Let the end of the world come tumbling down

I'll be the last man standing on the ground

As long as I got blood rush trough my veins

I'm still alive

Lost in the night

Feeling so invisible

Oh, a dead man walking the wire

I have broke the devils net

That's made of fire

And it's a long way down from the top of the world

You better look around or you gonna get burned

I'm a runaway train on broken track

I'm a ticker on a bomb, you can't turn back this time

That's right

I got away with it all and I'm still alive

Let the end of the world come tumbling down

I'll be the last man standing on the ground

And as the dust wheels look in my eyes

I'm still alive

I'm still alive

The darkest night ain't black enough

To keep the morning light from shinin'

The highest wall ain't tall enough

To keep the smallest man from climbin'

The more that you resist the tide

The more it pulls you in

The more you hang on for your life

(I'm a runaway train on broken track)

(I'm a ticker on a bomb, you can't turn back this time)

(that's right)

That's right

I got away with it all and I'm still alive

I'm a runaway train on broken track

I'm a ticker on a bomb, you can't turn back this time

That's right

I got away with it all and I'm still alive

Let the end of the world come tumbling down

I'll be the last man standing on the ground

And if my saddle is all that survives

I'm still alive

I'm still alive...

Today is the first day of the rest of your life

Yeah that quote is a good one, today is the first day of the rest of your life. Well I guess I am going to have to work up to that first day. I have just started the stressful week and I don't know what is going to happen next, I got the book to become the plant based guy, but I got to admit eating thins with a face and drinking dairy and using oil are all things I like. I need to figure out this thing, I have read the studies and the research if I do this I won't have a heart attach or brain aneurysm, diabetes and get as big as a house. Most of them are things that happen in my family so this is what I got to do.

Times are a changing

With the event of stress of life I haven't been doing anything, I have just been trying to get enough energy to survive. I hope someday that it will change, because just surviving is hard.

Finally made it to the kettlebell Class

I guess that I have a lot to learn. I went to some different seminars but found out now that I still have a lot to learn. Kettlebells didn't give me cardiovascular training, but I found out that I was wrong. The instructor is trained in the Art of Strength method and I have found that I like this method apposed to the Russian Kettlebell method. I don't base it on any knowledge about the techniques of them, just on my personal preference. I feel that this is going to help me on my fat man's journey.

Well here we go

I have been stressing out over a new job, moving out of state, moving back and then trying for so long to find a job. Now I drive over 40 minutes one way to my job. By the time I get home I am exhausted I feel as if I am ready to drop. I got a tread mill thinking that would get me going, but to no avail. I am gaining weight and not feeling good about myself. I hope that tomorrow changes. I stress of parents, stress of my uncle dying and stress of having a close friend rub me the wrong way. I guess I am taking things too seriously, I hope going to the kettlebell class can relieve that stress.

The start will be Saturday

It is my hope that I will be able to attend the Kettlebell class in Northbranch. I am going to do it tomorrow at 8:00 a.m. I like the art of strength formatt and will try to make it every Saturday

Why wait

I guess we all wait until tomorrow to why wait start today that is what makes life work

Today is the first day of the rest of my life

I am fat guy with dreams I am trying to loose weight to achieve my dreams and also keep up with my kids I hope this will chart my progress. Right now I weight 238 lbs and my waist is 38. My hopes to get down to 200 lbs and a waist of 30